The "wrong" body type
Written by- Nishi Thakur
Edited by- Ananya Julka
"A perfect body. What is that? Is it the skinniest body or a curvy one? Is it the body with buffed up muscles or a raw boned one? And among all such shapes, where is my body shape? In this competition of perfect body, am I not even a contender. I never thought of my body as "not beautiful". I believed everyone's body was attractive. It was all a myth. I realized in 10th grade that I was fat, and that wasn't beautiful. I did not have a pretty face, my body was far too hairy and I was not fashionable enough. With all the other girls I felt like a piece of coal in between the diamonds, just waiting to be thrown away. As I grew, it kept becoming difficult. I saw people celebrating their body type and proving the world that they were beautiful. And to be honest they were, it felt like it was only me who wasn't. Time passed by and college came, and with it came the dysmorphia. The struggle to step out with so many insecurities. I didn't realize anything was wrong with me until that one day when I saw an 8th grader, a child compared to my age, and wished if I could only have a body as tiny as hers. I instantly regretted the thought but the desire remained. The desire of a body that would make me a contender in the competition of being beautiful. If only I could know for once, how it felt like being pretty, to have people admire you, to have people that love you because you are beautiful.
If only I could feel that I am beautiful too"
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